TIME TO TALK

IT'S LATE AND I WILL TELL YOU RIGHT NOW THAT I FINALLY GAVE IN ABOUT AN HOUR AGO AND TOOK A PAIN PILL....SO IF THERE'S AN ERROR OR TWO IN SPELLING OR GRAMMAR, CAN WE JUST CHALK IT UP TO MY NEW FRIEND PERCOCET?  THANKS FRIENDS, LOL


TODAY HAS BEEN A ROUGH DAY AND UNLESS I SIT AND WRITE THIS DOWN, I'M AFRAID I'LL BE IN FOR A ROUGHER ONE TOMORROW.  REMEMBER THAT I TOLD YOU THAT I SUFFER FROM TIME TO TIME WITH DEPRESSION?  WELL, GUESS IT CAUGHT UP WITH ME TODAY.  AND ONE OF THE QUICKEST "FIXES" FOR DEPRESSION I KNOW OF IS NOT POURED OUT OF A BOTTLE OR INJECTED INTO A VEIN.  THE BEST MEDICINE FOR ME IS SITTING DOWN AND HAMMERING AWAY, ONE STINKING (LOL) KEY AT A TIME.  OH MY GOSH, THERE'S ACTUALLY HALF OF A SMILE ON MY FACE ALREADY.  :)


PHYSICALLY, I THINK THE ARM IS HANGING IN THERE OK.  10 DAYS AGO SEEMS FOREVER-BEEN LOOKING AT PHOTOS OF THE REUNION JUST 2 WEEKS AGO, TRYING TO SEE WHAT IT USED TO BE LIKE.  SHOCKER OF ALL SHOCKERS, I ACTUALLY STILL HAVE THAT APPENDAGE AND FOR ITS RIPE OLD AGE OF 55, IT WAS DOING PRETTY GOOD...AND IN TIME, IF I DON'T GIVE UP, IT WILL BE GOOD ONCE MORE.  THE STITCHES ARE PULLING AND I WONDER IF THAT MEANS SOME HEALING IS GOING ON?  I SWEAR, I BELIEVE THERE MUST BE 1,000,000 OF THEM IN THERE.....EITHER THAT OR THE SURGEON WAS AWFUL SLOW AT PUTTING THEM IN. THE FINGERS, MINUS "MR. THUMBKIN" ARE TRYING TO COME ALIVE.  MY CAREER IN GIVING THE "CALIFORNIA HELLO" IS NOW OVER, AT LEAST FOR OLD LEFTY.  LIKE I EVER DID THAT ANYWAYS, BUT HEY, I ACTUALLY LAUGHED WHILE I TYPED THAT.  IN TWO WEEKS, THE STITCHES WILL COME OUT AND I HOPE TO GET A SHORTER CAST AND NEWS THAT THINGS ARE LOOKING BETTER.  AND IF I DON'T I PRAY TO NOT BE TOO DISAPPOINTED.


I'VE THOUGHT A LOT TODAY ABOUT MY BUCKET LIST-AND OF GIVING UP ON IT FOREVER.  MOST OF THE THINGS I HAD LEFT REQUIRE 2 GOOD HANDS AND A WAY BETTER ATTITUDE THAN I'VE HAD TODAY.  AFTER MUCH THINKING, PRAYING, ARGUING WITH MYSELF (NOW THAT WAS A SIGHT, GLAD NO ONE HAD TO BE A WITNESS TO THAT), I DECIDED TO KEEP PLODDING ON, IN OTHER WORDS, NO WAY WILL I GIVE UP!


FROM NOW UNTIL MY ARM HEALS FULLY, I'M GOING TO CONCENTRATE ON THE FOLLOWING THREE BUCKET LIST ITEMS. HEY, I THINK I CAN MANAGE THEM.


1. TO CONTINUE MEETING ALL OF MY FACEBOOK FRIENDS IN PERSON AND BUYING THEM SOMETHING TO DRINK AND TALKING ABOUT LIFE.


2. TO LEARN HOW TO BE MORE FORGIVING OF MYSELF (NOW, THAT'S NOT GOING TO BE FUN).


3. TO RIDE 600 MORE MILES THIS YEAR ON MY BIKE SET UP IN A STATIONERY TRAINER IN MY OWN FRONT ROOM. I HAD THE "SECRET" GOAL OF MAKING 2000 MILES THIS RIDING SEASON. THE ODOMETER SITS AT 1400, AND I JUST CAN'T LET IT STAND THAT WAY. THANKS TO MY GOOD FRIENDS LE ROY AND ANNE FOR HELPING ME PICK UP A TRAINER IN COLORADO SPRINGS. I PROMISE, AND I MEAN I PROMISE, TO DISCUSS IT WITH MY DOCTOR FIRST AND NOT DO IT IF HE ADVISES AGAINST IT. 


I'M REALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO RETURNING TO MY JOB AS A TEACHER ON MONDAY OF THIS WEEK. THINGS WILL BE DIFFERENT, I KNOW, BUT I'M SURE THAT THERE'LL BE A COUPLE HUNDRED KIDS WHO WILL GLADLY BE MY ASSISTANTS. THOSE TWO HUNDRED KIDS ARE THE BEST MEDICINE AN AILING TEACHER CAN HAVE. THEY ARE THE REASON I GET UP EVERY MORNING AND HEAD OUT THE DOOR. 


HEY, THANKS FOR LISTENING. YOU GUYS  ARE THE BEST UH...THERAPISTS I THINK I'VE EVER HAD. I FEEL BETTER ALREADY JUST TALKING TO SOMEBODY. A SMILE IS ON MY FACE AND I THINK I JUST THREW OFF ANOTHER PIECE OF HEAVY BAGGAGE THAT I'VE BEEN CARRYING AROUND TODAY. GOOD THING FOR ME, BECAUSE THIS CAST WEIGHS A LOT ON ITS OWN!


GOODNIGHT.